Wednesday, 13 June 2012

Medical Update:  Hate it when other people know something you don't.  Just spoken to the secretary of my neurologist, they have the results of my EEG back but they have to request my file, write a letter and other paperwork so i won't find out what is happening for another week or so.  Which the NHS would just give you copies of reports, i can google the technical stuff (Like when they give you them forms for blood tests, i always google to find out what the tests are for).  Anyway, on the positive side if i do need to go back to the neurologist she said they'd slot me in which hopefully implies that i wouldn't have to wait months again.  I've already waited over three months yet this last week feels like it's going to take twice as long as what I've already waited.  If only I'd learnt to read minds, would know what that report said now.

Thursday, 7 June 2012

Medical Update: Another shaky day that follows the previous shaky day and so on.  It's difficult to distinguish symptoms now as i'm so used to them that they are just a part of every day life.  Not being able to walk down the stairs normal, or my words slurring and the tremors are just how it is.  Getting a bit bored of the whole thing now but the lovely flowers from work are keeping me cheerful (Thanks guys!).  


Wrote down everything in chronological order yesterday for a catch up at work.  Has been a 141 days since i first started shaking and freezing whilst watching an episode of Eastenders.  120 days since i was signed off sick.  It feels like a lifetime with no end point but i still have a clear understanding of how lucky I am. I can't imagine how people are able to face things without the support that I've had, friends, work, uni have all been amazing and i still love the NHS (even though they are slow).  


I would like an answer at some point, please if possible, but am trying to get used to the idea that maybe there won't be one, maybe this is just how it is now.  My nephew, after watching Jack and the Beanstalk, told me that giants are big cos that's just what they are (He's a very insightful 3 year old).  Am aiming to gain the same level of acceptance.

Wednesday, 6 June 2012

Medical Update: I've been neglecting the blog lately but get bored of writing the same thing all the time.


Had an ECG on Wednesday which wasn't too bad.  The worse part was the gel they use to fix the wires to your head, takes forever to wash out and is itchy.  They attach like 15 wires to you then you mostly have to lie there for an hour with your eyes shut.  If the middle you have to do some deep breathing for three minutes (A lot harder than it sounds, makes you feel like you're going to pass out) and then look at some flashing lights.  It takes two weeks for them to write the report to the neurologist stating the results so am back to waiting again.  I don't think that there's any more tests that they have left to do.


After the ECG got home to find from my neurologist to my GP that i was copied into saying i needed an ECG.  Are a bit slow, had already had it.  Letter was dictated on 12 May, typed on 16 May and i got it on  the 31.

Monday, 28 May 2012

Medical Update: My ECG is on Wednesday morning.  Have to have clean hair with no products in it so am going to be a frizzy mess.

Thursday, 17 May 2012

Medical Update: NHS i love you but you have to make it easier for people to contact you.  Spoke to six different people who kept giving me new phones numbers before i got through to the right person.  Finally got there and the nice women read out my report for me. Still no answers though.  MRI came back fine, no lesions which is good, but still don't know what is wrong with me.  Have to wait for a EKG next to check for epilepsy.   Have i mentioned i hate waiting?

Tuesday, 15 May 2012

Random: No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no! 


Why are pointy shoes back?
Thought of the day (aka rant): I found out yesterday that if a crime happens on a cruise ship then the police of the place where the ship is registered has jurisdiction.  Quite a few ships (including the one James is planning to take us on) are registered in the Bahamas. When Rebecca Coriam disappeared the Bahamas police sent one officer.  James said that the cruise would be a good place to kill me.  If i don't come back you know why although now that I've wrote it on my blog he probably won't because he'd be the prime suspect.  Then again, maybe he'll think that no one would believe that he'd be so stupid to kill me after I've written it on my blog that no one would suspect him.  Or, maybe they'll think that he thought that they'd think... i could keep going a very long time.

Not sure why James would want to kill me exactly but i should probably stop nagging him about leaving his shoes in front of my draw just in case (He puts them right in front and then i can't open it, he could put them in front of his draw...).

Anyways, the parents of Rebecca Coriam are campaigning for a change in the law to allow UK authorities to investigate cases of British nationals who go missing on vessels registered abroad.  If you'd like to sign the petition please go to the link below.

Medical Update: Had a really bad episode yesterday.  Couldn't move, walk or talk and kept coming back.  Would be so bad if it just came, did it's thing and then went.  When it stops you know that it's coming back soon but you don't know when or how bad it will be.  Couldn't lower my arms to the side of my body at one point.  Is like becoming a statue.  On the plus side, James and I are developed a new language, one grunt for can't talk, two for can't move.  Three for "Shut up James, you're not funny!".  He really isn't!


Feeling shaky at the moment so know it's coming back, just don't know when or how bad it will be.  hope that the NHS ain't forgot about me, would like to know what is wrong with me and if they can fix it at some point.  At your own convenience like, when you have time maybe.

Monday, 14 May 2012

Thought of the day (aka rant): Where did personal responsibility go?  I'm sure i heard of it a some point it but is seems to have vanished.  The amount of injury lawyer adverts on to is annoying me.  Some times bad things happen, it doesn't have to be some one's fault.  If you trip on the pavement don't sue the council, watch where you're going.   How come:

                        When good things happen to you - Good Luck or karma
                        When good things happen to others - Sod's law
                        When bad things happen to others - Karma
                        When bad things happen to you - Look for someone to blame (and a lawyer)

Medical Update: Haven't done any updates for a while as nothing new to add really.  Some days are ok, some days are really bad.  Bad days are generally when it is the least convenient, like not being able eat at a restaurant or having trouble walking around Morrisons.  Bad episodes are getting more frequent and during them i can't walk or talk.  Only get pain on the better days when the tremors stop.  Waiting to find out when i go back to the neurologist to find out the results of the MRI.

Tuesday, 8 May 2012

Medical Update: Today has been good today but had a really bad bank holiday weekend.  Tremors were relentless and had quite a few episodes where i couldn't walk or talk and kept freezing.  Had trouble getting them to stop long enough to go to sleep.  James has done research and apparently the tremors happen because my brain keeps telling my body to move and when it doesn't respond it keeps telling it over and over again so that when my body can move it moves too much and that's why i get tremors.  Sounds like my old laptop, would click to open the web browser and it wouldn't respond so i'd keep clicking only to end up with ten browsers open at once. It's very annoying whatever it is.

Friday, 4 May 2012

Random:  Why do journalists think that local results and national results are one in the same?


P.S. Am i the only one who thinks Ed Miliband is reminiscent of a contestant on The Apprentice? 
Thought of the Day (aka rant):  A large number of people in the UK suffer from movement disorders.


 Essential tremor - the most common movement disorder - affects one in 20 people under the age of 40 and one in five people over 65.  (http://www.bbc.co.uk/health/physical_health/conditions/movementdisorders1.shtml)


120,000 people in the UK have Parkinson's. (http://www.hesonline.nhs.uk/Ease/servlet/ContentServer?siteID=1937&categoryID=868)


100,000 have MS. (http://www.mssociety.org.uk/what-is-ms)


300,000 people in the UK suffer from Tourettes. (http://www.touretteshero.com/faq/)


Isn't it time that these people were more represented on TV so that if you're on a train maybe not quite as many people stare at you?  Just think public awareness needs to be raised a bit to reduce the levels of ignorance.
Medical Update: Well MRI is done, just have to wait for the results now.  The machine was scary, I've never been buried alive (Don't think many people have and lived to tell the tale unless you're Max from Eastenders) but i imagine it feels a bit like being put in a tiny space so that magnets can bang around you. The noises are horrible, but are like ten different ones.  The first one took like 25 minutes then had to go back in for another ten minutes with a cage thing around my head.  Was very hard to stay calm, kept wanting to scream to get out.  Thought they were kidding when they said i had to go back in again.  It's the noises that are the worse, James was two rooms away and he could still hear it.

Wednesday, 2 May 2012

Lessons you can learn from Disney: Lesson 1 Quasimodo



  • You should value what you have as someone somewhere always has it worse than you do.
  • Sometimes the hero doesn't always get the girl (unless you count rubbish sequels that i choose to ignore) and that's ok.  Yourself is enough.
  • People will tell you anything to get what they want.
  • You should always stand up against injustice.
  • You should never follow orders blindly (Unless you're blindfolded and they're leading you round a maze or something).
  • Children are less prejudice that adults.
  • Villains always get great songs.
  • With great power comes great corruption (In reality Spiderman would be an assassin to hire, would make far more money than taking photos).
  • Gargoyles are cool.
Medical Update: Thought yesterday was going to be a good day but turned out to be a really bad one and tremors and packed trains do not mix.  Journey took three and a half hours instead of two and four trains instead of two and my head shook the entire time and get losing my balance so stayed away from people and the tracks (Which wasn't easy as every where was packed).  Couldn't walk at one point and kept worrying i would freeze and wouldn't be able to get off the train.


When you have a broken foot most people are really nice to you and do whatever they can to help.  When you're having tremors people either stare at you and think you're crazy or they stare and pretend not to stare.  Tremors are not socially acceptable.  Hopefully at least everyone i know who has seen mine now will be a bit more understanding and nicer if they see someone else having them.  Making someone feel like a leper makes the tremors worse.


Just for the record, it is far easier to stand on a moving train with a broken foot than it is whilst having tremors.


Lost the ability to walk and talk again last night.  

Tuesday, 1 May 2012

Random: Am very lucky to have two homes. There aren't enough words to describe how amazing my two housemates are, they're simply the best (Tina Turner) and i would never have gotten through the last three months being positive without either of them.  However, during the day it's Charlie, Lola and Gizmo that keep me sane.  So, i say in the battle of cats v dogs, why choose.  They're actually pretty similar.


        Cats                                                                                  Dogs


Lola is scared of everything.                                              Gizmo is scared of everything.
Seriously mean everything!                                                Seriously mean everything.


When Lola is scared she runs away                                   When Gizmo is scared he barks 
and meows a lot.                                                                and attacks (Even tape measures)


Charlie and Lola sleep on my legs.                                     Gizmo steals half the bed.


Charlie and Lola do sad eyes to get your                            Gizmo sits still and behaves to get
your dinner.                                                                         your dinner.


Charlie puts mud all over the bed.                                       Gizmo puts mud all over the bed.


Spend most of your day figuring out what                           Spend most of your day telling Giz
to food Lola wants.                                                              to be quiet.


Charlie tries to scratch your leg.                                         Giz tries to hump your leg.


Like toys that make noises.                                                 Likes toys that make noises.


Are very insistent when they want to play.                          Is very insistent when he wants to
                                                                                           play.


Have claws (and uses).                                                      Has bark (and uses)


Charlie and Lola sleep with their arms                                 Giz gives you nudges and lets you
around each other.                                                              carry him around all the time.


Think they own the house.                                                 Thinks he owns the house.


Lola gets annoyed if i leave stuff                                       Gizmo gets annoyed if i leave stuff
in her bedroom.                                                                 on his sofa.


Charlie don't care what destruction                                   Gizmo don't care that he runs
he causes by running around.                                           around and causes destruction.






Monday, 30 April 2012

Thought of the Day (aka rant): Political literature is annoying me again for the following reasons:


1. It's bad enough that you quoted The Sun but to quote The Sun from a year ago...


2. It is not nice to suggesat that anyone who doesn't vote for you is a fool.


3. You state that "This is a LOCAL election.  It is ONLY about who will make the BEST COUNCILLOR for Abbey Ward!".  I have two issues with this.


Firstly, It seems you're trying to distance yourself.  If that's the case why not run as an independent?   You represent a political party right?


Secondly, your pictures clearly indicate what you think is wrong with the opposition party.  MP's Expenses (Was all parties wasn't it?), Student fees, ruined economy, bankers run riot, closure of post offices, illegal war, low pension rise.  These are national issues.  Are we to ignore national issues for your own party but not in regards to your opposition? 

Random: Found 34 euros and 33 cents in my money box.
Medical Update:  My hand has turned into the claw, like on Liar Liar.  Keep wanting to go "The Claw!!"

Sunday, 29 April 2012

Random: TOWIS (Clare making me watch it for education purposes, need to see what it was all about) "Need to straighten the air" (I.e. Means clear the air)


Is that done with an air straightener?
Thought of the Day (aka rant): The focus on one missing child lately (Which i don't deny is a terrible thing) led me to wonder how many UK citizens under the age of 18 are currently missing.  I wanted to know why some receive a vast amount of media attention whilst others do not.  


Apparently the answer is not easy to find.  The UK missing Kids's database (http://uk.missingkids.com) lists 184 children (83 females, 101 males) that have gone missing in the last 20 years however it relies on accurate information from the police.  18 children went missing from the UK in the last year.


Kate Leaman, from Sky News, asked the same question back in 2088.  In her article she quotes Lady Catherine Meyer, founder of Parents and Abducted Children Together.
"It is impossible to obtain an accurate picture of the scale and nature of the problem. There is no single centralised place to collect missing persons data."
"We can't establish for certain how many children are missing.You'd have more chance of finding a stray dog" she said.
Alan Blackburn from the Police National Missing Persons Bureau, based at Scotland Yard, is unhappy that the police do not respond quicker by passing on missing persons' information.
"There is some under-reporting by police forces, some don't send it when they should do, some don't send it at all," he said.
"It takes 14 days before any case is considered serious and labelled 'long term missing'. 
"There are so few missing children's photos on the official website, I am encouraging the police force to pass on photos and share information from the outset."
Although his unit is directly responsible, he too doesn't know how many missing children there are - although he is eager for a change.

I still haven't answered my original question, but in looking for an answer i'm found a much bigger issue.  Surely a nation who is responsible for it's citizens should have accurate figures of those who are lost.  I haven't even got on to those missing over the age of 18, which is even more under reported by the media and is no less any tragic than a missing child.  No one should be missing but when they are we should do everything we can to try and find them.  I think accurate and centralised missing persons site for the UK is the place to start. 

You can read the full article at this address http://news.sky.com/home/madeleine/article/1271653.
Medical Update: Bad day for tremors today, trouble walking and keep freezing.  Will hurt when the tremors go.  Freaked the barman out at Almanac though, which was fun.
Thought of the Day (aka rant): How to never be a politician.


Today's rant, slightly late but had trouble typing today.  The actions of others are beyond our control, all we can control is how we react.  If someone lets you down you have two choices, get back up and take a risk or spend your life on the floor.  You are the master of your fate (William Ernest Henry, my other favorite poem) and no one can take your dignity (Well least that's what Whitney said).  


Grace - favor or goodwill. kindness, kindliness, lovebenignity; condescension. mercy; clemency; pardon: lenity, leniency, reprieve.


Hence the copy and paste job below (I like to change "You'll be a man" to "You'll never be a politician".  Not quite as sexiest then).


If - Rudyard Kipling


IF you can keep your head when all about you 
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

Friday, 27 April 2012

Random: No point being all (Imagine a funny man voice) "I have nothing to hide, here is the link to my expense claims.  Quite clearly here for all to see.  Aha!" if the link don't work.
Thought of the Day (aka rant):  I sat upstairs in McDonald's for like an hour today just watching people walk in the rain (And drinking tea, so wasn't completely strange).  Maybe I've watched too much Touch (Brilliant show) but i started to see patterns.  Generally people walk at the same pace, some strides are longer than each other, but from above it looks like a beautiful unrehearsed but choreographed dance that nobody knows they are in.  People walking has been used a lot in music videos and promo films (The credits of Touch) but I've never really paid attention to it first hand.  Where are they all going?  What's going to make them smile next?  Do they like who they are? Do they know i'm watching them? :)


It's the people that are out of step that i like to watch.  Those that not only go against the pattern but also cause others to upset theirs.  That's kind of like life isn't it, that you're either with the flow or against it.  Some let the currents glide them on whereas others swim against it. Do those that swim against it cause others to drown too? I don't know what the point of this is, i don't think there is one, other than sometimes people carry a ladder.


After a while i realized that people where starting to become more like ants than people (Is scary how easy it is to dehumanize people, why we do use animal language when we do though?) so i walked among them for a little while till i realised that i couldn't remember what i was shopping for and that my essay is still yet unwritten.



Medical Update: Back at the GP who has signed my off for another six weeks.  Trouble walking this morning Legs won't go where i want so is kind of like a limp) and lots of tremors in my thighs (Do they count as exercise?). Feeling like an episode is coming. I've been having trouble smiling lately so i tried to smile at as many people as possible today just because i can.  
Random: (to the tune of 'Mary had a little lamb')


Waiting for a
M R I
M R I
M R I
Waiting for a
M R I
Only 22 days to go

Thursday, 26 April 2012

Medical Update: Only minor tremors today.  No excuse not to do uni work.
Thought of the Day (aka rant): Have been thinking about the statement "Proud to be British".  


The definition of Pride - A feeling or deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one's own achievements, the achievements of those with whom one is closely associated, or from qualities or possessions that are widely admired.


The definition of Luck - Success or failure apparently brought by chance rather than through one's own actions.


Where i was born is completely down to luck.  We could argue the nature/nurture split till the cows come home so lets say for arguments sake that who i am is 50%  determined by my genetics and that the rest is due to my environment.  My genetics, and therefore key components of what makes me me, would be the same regardless of if i was born in Istanbul or Paraguay.  The rest is down to luck based upon where i was born and the society around me when i grew up.  My being British is not the achievement of myself or anyone else, it was luck, which makes me far luckier than those born in totalitarian political nations which do not enjoy the same rights and privileges that i do, but doesn't make me proud, i had nothing to do with it and neither did anyone else.  We're born into a veil of ignorance. 


It seems that 'British Pride' is mostly raised in connecting to sporting events.  If someone can throw a ball faster than someone else and they happen to be British should i be proud of that?  If 50% of what makes them the best thrower is genetics then they would have that no matter where they were born.  The rest is luck.  I can hear people shouting "Yes, but they trained for years", that's hard work yeah but it's also luck too.  If they hadn't been born in a Country that invests in sport they wouldn't have had the opportunity to learn.  A woman born in Afganistan could have more potential to run the 100 metres faster than a woman born in England, the fact that she'll never be able to fulfill this potential and beat the English woman is down to the bad luck of where she was born.  Maybe it's just me, if i had my way everyone who takes part would get gold ribbons and win.  I don't like that fine line between pride and arrogance that says someone is better than someone else.  Some people are luckier than others and who am i to pass judgement based upon luck.


I like Britain, i like that we have an NHS, that we don't use capital punishment, that we have freedom of speech, freedom of choice, that even though watching PMQs is like watching a bunch of gorillas we have PMQs, we can watch PMQs and we can dissent without the fear of persecution.   It's not a bad place to live, to be a citizen of, and i don't think there's a whole load of places that have it any better.  I'm not proud to be British though, I'm lucky to be British.

Wednesday, 25 April 2012

Random: Why would anyone buy a perfume by Justin Bieber?  The bottle design is freaking me out!
Medical Update:  Tremors back.  So much for day off.  Can't type.
Medical Update: Tremors 0, Pain immense.


Starting to hate the days without tremors more as are usually the days that i feel the pain. 


Had a report from occupational health that says i'm "unlikely to be in a position to return to work for another three months or longer".  Really hope it's wrong. Day time TV sucks and i get cups of tea made for me at work.  On the plus side, my dressing gown is getting plenty of wear and i'm always in when parcels are delivered. 
Thought of the Day (aka rant): Watching Prime Minister's question time reminds me very much of being on a train with a load of drunk, rowdy football fans.  A group of privileged boys fighting it out in with playground with other groups of privileged boys who happen to wear a different colour tie.  


Fire Hunt, don't fire Hunt, in the grand scale of things it doesn't really matter.  It makes no difference really, if he is fired he'll just get a different job in the party in a couple of months.  It's political point scoring at it's best which will temporarily distract everyone from the real issues.  If they put as much effort into solving issues that they do in finding reasons to big themselves up whilst putting their opposition down then maybe wouldn't have to wait two months for an MRI and could get back to work rather than the government having to pay me statutory sick pay.


I'm tired of being a victim, i wanna go back to work!  Shut up about Hunt, stop fighting and sort the Country out will you please.  I think it's what we hired you all to do.

Tuesday, 24 April 2012

Medical Update: Lots of tremors today (not to brag, just wanna keep a record innit).  Had an episode in the middle of Next Clearance.  You'd think they'd be a bit more convenient and upmarket and at least wait till i'm in the proper Next.  Wasn't that bad though, don't think anyone even noticed that i was walking around funny.

I have singlehandedly disproved the theory that if your arms flap enough you'll eventually fly.  I now have Orville stuck in my head (Why was he green anyways?  Baby ducks are yellow).  Now need to add rocking to my list of symptoms (From side to side, not rock and roll,  haven't spontaneously become able to dance to Led Zepplin which would be cool).
Thought of the Day (aka not a rant): Here's to saving the world (One person at a time)


Today's thought of the day is not a rant, it's more of a thank you.  Sometimes the small actions of others can make a huge difference for someone else.  An actors comment in an interview, or a link that someone has posted on a forum can stop you freaking out when the same thing happens to you, friends who let you struggle because they know you need to and to boyfriends who care enough to get obsessed with stupid things.  


If the action of another helps you face a a challenge with a smile rather than with a scream then it should be celebrated.  The people around me change my world for the better every day and so i want to celebrate them.


The small things matter and the small things can change your life and change your outlook on life. You can save the world with small things, one person at a time.


I found a song, Jonny Lang (Had never heard of him before) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UxqmTzE_X0 about changing the world one person at a time.  It's a nice song (You have to ignore all the hints for radio play etc, think he has issues). 


I leave you (Well me really, since only the people i pay are reading this) with these thoughts:


“Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed, citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.”  - Margaret Mead


“Change will not come if we wait for some other person, or if we wait for some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek.”  - Barack Obama (Gotta love him)


“I alone cannot change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create many ripples.”  - Mother Teresa


“Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”  - Apple Inc (Gotta hate them but good quote)



Annoying things bout having whatever it is i have (very long title)


Number 1:  Sometimes, if my head shakes at the same time that someone is asking me a question, the person thinks i'm saying no.  Here is a list of things i will never say no to:


Do you really need all these shoes?


Want to go shopping?


Are Vic and Bob funny?


Is George Bush an idiot? (Don't matter which one)


Shall we watch some Disney? (Don't matter which one)


Have you finished your essay yet? (Is always a lie)

Monday, 23 April 2012

Random: www.butchersjoint.com  Not real but still very funny.
Medical Update: Got a new symptom today, couldn't lift my legs to walk.  Had to shuffle along and then got stuck.  Is like your feet are stuck in concrete with painless cramps in your legs that keep them rigid.  Completely goes away if i count out loud though (I can pretend to be the Count from Sesame Street).  Freaky but funny at the same time.


Met some very nice people at the http://www.mdjunction.com forum.  Are all very nice!!
Medical Update: Spacemen walking is back and keep freezing so know they are on the way.


Medical Update:  Feeling a bit rubbish today, only mild tremors but keep freezing and can't get motivated to read about violence.  If anyone wants to write my essay for me (2,000 words on whether violence mean a breakdown of politics) would be great thanks.  


Have been joining different medical forums on the internet as getting bored of the waiting game.  Have ruled out essential tremor so far.  If i have my own brand new condition that am going to try and convince the doctor who names it to call it BibbityBobbityBoo.  Dame Edna can play me in the day time straight to tv movie.
Medical Update: I love who ever came up with ibuprofen
Random: "Note to the men out there, if you spend $715 on shoes for your lady she'll forgive you for just about anything" US Don't Tell The Bride


Is so true!
Thought of the Day (aka rant): Finally the BBC actually agree with me, I've been ranting about this for years.  http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-derbyshire-17787756


Only the Liberal Democrat candidate for Abbey ward in Derby actually lives in Abbey (unless he's given his Gran's address like people used to do to get their kids in good schools).

The Conservative Party Candidate - Doesn't live in any Derby ward.  Lives in Nottingham.
The Labour Party Candidate - Darley
The Green Party Candidate - Darley


So then, i ask you, why are they not standing for election in the wards (Or town in conservative's case) in which they live? 


Well, i have two answers.  The political numbers game of moving people into key positions to win party seats and also people don't want to live near the plebs they represent, they might catch something.  I haven't checked which councillors live where for a while but seem to remember a lot of them living in Darley (The nicer area of Derby) last time i checked.  If you live in Darley then surely your priority is Darley, not the ward that you represent.


In response to those people who say does it matter, the name local elections should provide a clue.  We select people to represent us.  To both know and understand are our issues and to provide the people with a voice.  Apparently we still fighting for Lincoln's " of the people, by the people, for the people" unless you happen to live in Darley.

Random: Look Rihanna, i have to know, where exactly is the hopeless place ya fell in love at?  An Aldi car park? Luton? A service station on the M1?

Sunday, 22 April 2012

Thought of the Day (aka rant): Why do the Liberal Democrats think that the people of Abbey ward are stupid? Their literature, which they kindly posted through my letter box, states the the conservatives can not win the local election next week and therefore we should vote lib instead.  It's backed up by a graph and every thing, showing last years results!  

Is Derby no longer part of a democracy? I thought the whole point was that any one can win and we're not dumb (Well most of us ain't), we don't vote for the same party every year regardless of the candidate and their positioning on issues.

Almost made me vote conservative just to prove them wrong.  No shouting at me, i said almost.
Medical Update: Really bad day of tremors.  Hands and neck shaking quite badly and couldn't get my hands to do stuff.  Bit annoying.  Walked like a spacemen on tv in slow motion for a while too which was pretty amusing.  Could never do the whole slow motion thing back in school in drama class.

Thursday, 19 April 2012

Medical Update: One more month to go till MRI.  Love you NHS but so bored of waiting!

Monday, 19 March 2012

Medical Update: Saw the neurologist (Who James thinks is scary) and had to do tests.  Didn't really learn much other than improving my skill at interpreting the Hungarian accent.  Have to have an MRI on 19 May.

Thursday, 16 February 2012

Medical Update: I have a very unremarkable brain!!!  Was referred to the clinical decision unit for a CT scan to check for bleeding in the brain.  Came back fine, or unremarkable as the doctor told me.  I was hoping for genius but unremarkable will do i suppose.

Thursday, 9 February 2012

Medical Update: Signed off sick from work.  Don't really feel that ill but was getting a bit annoying at watching my hand mover the mouse from side to side.

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

Medical Update: Blood test results all normal, don't need iron tablets (Yeah).  Spent very long time doing tests with my doctor and have been referred to a neurologist.

Friday, 20 January 2012

Medical Update: Tremors started again in my neck and right hand.  People at work got a bit freaked and so spend a long time talking to NHS Direct, who were amazing.  Ended up getting an appointment with my doctor (Amazing, as normal takes many hours of phone call to get an appointment).  Sent me for blood tests and gave me iron tablets (Yuck).

Thursday, 19 January 2012

Medical Update: Relaxing watching Eastenders when the right side of my body froze.  Couldn't move or talk and then tremor started in my right hand.  Went away after a while but pretty freaky.